Wednesday, October 19, 2011

A new post!

Well I am officially feeling huge! I am half way to 25 weeks pregnant and I can't suck in my belly anymore. Not that I was trying to before, but sometimes it was sort of comforting knowing that I could still do it. This little girl is quite an active little tyke. She moves... and moves... and moves... and then moves some more. I swear she never stops. At first I LOVED it and now I am starting to get a little irritated. Especially when I am trying to sleep at night! I of course still love feeling her moving but sometimes I fear it is a sign of things to come. Carter didn't move nearly this much and he turned out to be a never ending ball of energy. Since the day Carter was born he just wouldn't stop moving! What does this say about this little girl who is constantly spinning in circles?! I am not sure if I can handle another one just like Carter- although I will give him this- he is the most adorable little kid EVER and if baby number two is anything like that then I will sure be one lucky lady. I am secretly hoping she comes out with little red curls like I did when I was born. Ok ok... so I wasn't actually BORN with hair but eventually when it grew in I had luscious locks of curly red hair. Wouldn't that just be the cutest thing ever? I have a feeling she will be darker like Carter is though. A girl can still dream right?

Feeling this baby move so early was awesome because Kaleb and Carter both have been able to feel her for weeks. At first they had to press against my stomach to feel her little flip flops but now they just have to lay their hands gently on my stomach because she sure kicks hard! Carter always lays on my belly especially first thing in the morning and sings to her or talks to her about his day or preschool. He is always putting his hand on my stomach and moves it up and down himself and says "Look mom! The baby is moving!" Hahaha. I just hope that when she actually comes that he will love her as much instead of dwelling on the fact that he isn't the center of attention anymore. We have been trying to work on that with him. For 3 years it has been all about him and I am pretty sure he will have a hard time sharing mommy and daddy... and especially Grandma Scholes!

This pregnancy has been different in so many ways. I was much sicker this time around. I finally stopped puking all the time a few weeks ago but I still am nauseous sometimes and it stinks! I am also a lot bigger at this point than I was with Carter, but I have been told that always happens with your second and third etc. I also have been experiencing round ligament pains since I was about 10 weeks along. At first I didn't know what it was. I though for sure I was going to die or that my woman parts were just going to fall out of my body because of the pain. I thought something was wrong with the baby. My best friend told me it was probably round ligament pains but when I looked that up on the internet it said that round ligament pain was off and on and was a shooting pain at random times. This was definitely not that. My pain was constant and almost like a dull thudding ache that got worse the more I walked around. But of course T was right because she is so brilliant like that and my doc told me it was indeed round ligament pain. She said mine was a severe case which is not super uncommon and that it would not go away until the baby was born (UGH!). In fact she said it would only get worse the bigger the baby grew (DOUBLE UGH!) and that Tylenol (the only thing I can really even take) doesn't help. So it's just something I have to deal with constantly every single day, slowly getting more and more painful until the day I deliver and maybe beyond. Hmmm... I wonder which will be worse, this constant pain for the next 15 weeks (more precisely 105 days) or childbirth? If I could choose I would hands down take childbirth over this- but lucky me I get BOTH! lol. And always the cherry on top- a few weeks ago i started feeling sciatic nerve pain down my lower back and butt cheek on the right side of my body- probably brought on by both pregnancy and the fact that I was not moving so well to begin with so maybe a nerve somehow got pinched. That almost hurts more than the round ligament pain sometimes especially when I sleep. It's been a fun couple of weeks that's for sure!

To be honest though it sounds worse than it is. Actually, scratch that. It is just as bad as it sounds. But I really don't mind it as much as I thought I would. I tried for years to get pregnant with this little miracle baby and I am just so thankful that I even get to bring her into this world. I am so incredibly grateful that I was chosen out of every other woman on this planet to be the mother of this little girl and that Heavenly Father thought I was qualified enough to teach her and raise her to be the kind of woman He would be proud of. I'll take pain and torture any day just for an opportunity like this one. And what is 9 months compared to a lifetime of happiness? I'm pretty darn excited :)

In other news, Kaleb is now working for the Church in Salt Lake City in one of the branches of their Temple Department. He has been home for the last two weeks working remote and it has been awesome! I love having him home all the time! It has been a little hard for Carter to not bug him constantly and want to play with him all the time, but he is figuring it out. It's fun to have Kaleb here when Carter does the cute things he does. He misses a lot of it when he is gone working and pictures and texts are just not the same as the real thing. We are still selling our house and we just barely put it on the market yesterday. It took us forever! We wanted to get things cleaned and looking their best as well as setting up a blog and posting it on a few different sites and in some papers before we put a sign out. But it is now officially for sale! It is a little sad, but I am confident that this was the right decision for us at this time and we will just leave it in the Lord's hand's. It could potentially take FOREVER to sell (if it even sells at all!) but I have to be positive and just hope that the Lord will make a way for us.

Carter is now officially Spiderman. I swear that kid is the funniest child ever. He gets onto these kicks and latches on tight and won't let go until something else comes along. He isn't even quite 3 years old yet but he understands so much more than I give him credit for. All he ever wants to watch is spiderman. At first I thought that the cartoon was too mature for him- not violent or anything but I thought he wouldn't understand the plot or what was going on. Boy did he prove me wrong a thousand times over! He is always running around saving me from the green goblin and other various villains and "climbing" up the walls and web slinging from couch to couch. One minute he is Spiderman saving the world! And the next minute he takes on his mask and becomes Peter Parker. It has been very entertaining these last few weeks. He knows all of the characters and pretends to be talking to each of them. We switch it up a lot and sometimes he watches the really old spiderman from like the 60's and other times he watches the newer one from the 90's. Lately he wants to watch spiderman and his amazing friends which is something completely different. So crazy that netflix offers so much! We have had to cut back on his cartoon watching because he figured out how to run netflix by himself and when one show is over he will start another one without me knowing. What started out as me letting him watch one show turns into like 3 or 4 because I am busy cleaning or doing something else! Now I have to keep a close eye on him the little rascal. :) He definitely is his fathers son. He is in love with the computer and knows how to run the mouse. He plays these little learning games on the computer and won't let me sit with him to help. He does it all himself and you know what? He does it right! Sometimes I think I know less about this computer than he does.

 Once again I have made a small thought into a huge long boring blog post! I forgot how nice it is to have an outlet for my thoughts. Hopefully I will remain stalwart in my blogging, but for some reason I doubt it! Hope everyone is having an EXCELLENT fall! Once we get our pumpkins carved finally I will post some of those pictures.